
Smith’s Verdict: ****
Reviewed by Tanner Smith
Full disclosure: I’m an associate producer on this film. But if I can review 45RPM, a film I acted in, I can surely tell you how much I enjoy a film I helped fund.
“Finding Joy” is a film that is equal parts eerie, mysterious, moving, insightful, and inspiring. Some scenes are chilling and disturbing; others are heartfelt and emotional; and overall, it’s here for a good purpose.
Don’t go into it expecting one thing. Stay with it, and you will probably appreciate and love it even more.
“Finding Joy” is the feature filmmaking debut of Valeri Bates, who put her heart and soul into this film. Bates (who recently shined as an actor in The Night is Young, coming soon) wrote and directed and also starred in the film as Roni, an artist who suffers sleep paralysis, as we see in horrific opening moments that involve…something…in the dark…watching her…
Yeah, I wouldn’t want to be Roni in these moments.
As the occurrences worsen, Roni attempts to do something about it. She puts herself in a sleep study, sees a therapist, confides in her childhood best friend Trish (Heather Elaine), and so on. And the more she learns from all of it, the more she also learns about herself…and that’s all I’ll say about it except that it raises interesting questions and more importantly sticks the landing.
Side-note: Valeri’s lead performance makes the film (more on that in a bit), but the supporting cast is also terrific–Heather Elaine (“Millennial with a Cane,” a film I will not review because I actually made it–see the difference now?) is excellent as Trish, Davis DeRock (The Stylist) is relaxed and likable as a helpful sleep technologist, Deborah Madick is wonderful as Roni’s therapist, Kurt Hanover is damn scary as a questionable figure from Roni’s past, and other memorable actors, many of whom are based in Kansas City (where the film was made), include Tangela Welch, Ashley Moreland, Jennifer Seward, and Angie Heck. This ensemble cast is worthy of recognition wherever it can be found.
In a way, “Finding Joy” is a psychological thriller, especially when you find yourself wondering what is truly at stake for many of the heavier moments. But it’s also a uniquely brilliant character study and haunting story. What also truly makes the film, aside from the stunning cinematography by David Watson (which includes arresting visuals, whether we’re in dark, claustrophobic spaces or even in open broad daylight) and the co-directing help from the extremely talented duo of Patrick Poe & Lolo Loren (Almost, Sorta, Maybe), is Valeri Bates herself. It’s not only because of the material she delivered from the start (and it’s a good screenplay)–it’s because of her lead performance as Roni. It has numerous layers and levels to it; it’s a brilliant performance. And I believe what is really going to keep people invested in this story is the Roni character and everything around her.
“Finding Joy” has an eerie, unsettling feel to it that makes Roni’s journey of self-discovery all the more captivating. We have questions such as: “What is that shadowy figure that stalks Roni in these sleep paralysis episodes?” “What is real and what isn’t?” “Is this film going to give us answers, tease us with no answers, or worse, tease us with answers?” Well, we do get answers, and thankfully, they don’t undercut everything that transpired to these moments (nor do they overload you with exposition to make sure you get the point). It all fits together beautifully. And that’s what Roni needs during all of this: she’s such a compelling and charismatic character that we want her to find the answers.
“Finding Joy” is a beautiful film. Valeri Bates and crew did splendid work and have a lot to be proud of here. It’s currently submitted into festivals, and I’m excited for many of them to give it the spotlight. And I only hope I’m there to add more support.
Follow “Finding Joy” on social media for updates on future screenings: @findingjoyfilm on Instagram and “findingjoyfilm” on Facebook.

